What a sunny day =.=

天啊...這幾天真是熱死我了,住頂樓沒有冷氣,我想我真的嘗到住在非洲的感覺.兩台直立式電扇一台小電扇仍然無法降暑,吹出來的風全都是熱的,真的很想睡旅館,不過太花錢了.買冷氣又太貴,怕到時候又搬家實在很麻煩.唉...房間裡這幾天從來沒低過30度的說....不知道什麼時候還會下下雨降降溫.好熱阿~~~~~~~~~~

蝴蝶蛹

有一個人無意中找到一個蝴蝶蛹。
幾天後，他留意到蛹出現了一個小孔，他就停下來觀察它。
過了幾個小時， 他見到裡面的蝴蝶用它細小的身體掙扎從小孔出來。
看來很久也沒有一些進度，小蝴蝶好像盡了最大努力也沒有辦法出來。
這個人於是決定幫它一把，找來一雙剪刀將蛹的儘頭剪開...


蝴蝶這樣就很容易出來。但是這蝴蝶的形態有一點特別，它的身體肥腫，
翅膀又細又弱。 這人繼續觀察蝴蝶因為他相信翅膀會漸漸變大
而它的身體會越來越小。這沒有發生。小蝴蝶餘生只是托著肥腫的大身體
和細弱的翅膀，在地上爬著走。
它永遠也不會飛行。
這個善良的人不了解蝴蝶必需用它細小的身體掙扎從小孔出來，
它必需經過這個過程，蝴蝶才可以將身體裡的體液壓進它的翅膀裡。
大自然在此有一個很奇妙的設計，
就是蝴蝶從蛹中掙扎出來是為著預備它將來飛行需要的裝備。
生命裡面的掙扎是我們必需有的。
如果老天允許我們順利地過一生，我們也許就此不會變得堅強。
也不會成長。
所以當你碰到有逼迫或苦難，記得有人正為你禱告，
最後你也會明白真理在你身上的計劃。


土星在傳統的占星學上是一顆災難星，不管是出現在命中或運中都是每個人最想避開的一顆行星。土星的定義為使人磨練得到成長、創造困難與阻礙、使夢想踏實於現實之中，結束關係，痛苦折磨。你如何看待生命中的土星就像你如何看待生命中一關又一關的困難。每個人人生中的土星試驗著人的毅力與耐力，重要的不是生命中將遇到如何悲慘的命運，而是這個命運如何讓個人成長，星盤才能不斷的進化，人生也將不受命運牽制。當渡過每個困難，行星離開了那艱困的相位，人生會往好的方向或壞的方向前進，全靠個人在這個受限相位所做的努力，在下一個相位來臨之前，做好準備，這才是土星對我們的恩賜。

下一次看到受限相位形成時，記得在抱怨與哭訴之前，先想一想，我能為這個困境做什麼改變，也許在努力之後，可以享受到土星為生命帶來的進化。

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十二宮

之前在Amazon買了一拖拉庫的星座書，前陣子火災燒掉了幾本，還好大部份都完好如初。今天終於有時間拿出來看看。

“The twelve houses” by Howard Sasportas. 主要是講宮位，還有各行星與星座在各宮位代表的意義。有一點重點是他不僅解釋每一個所代表的意義，還解釋了為什麼會有這些意義存在。例如說第十一宮，代表朋友，希望與夢想。表面上這三個東西看起來並沒有什麼關連，直到他講解了十一宮根本的意義，才讓這些解釋行的通。十一宮是一個代表延伸自我的象徵，代表想比原來自我還要偉大的一個欲望。須要達到這個目標，我們必須與別人溝通，融入社會這個更大的自我，或者透過擁有夢想或希望，來達成比自己成就更高一層更寬廣的一個空間。這樣說來，這三樣都是有連接的，藉由他的解釋，更能為第十一宮下更好的定義，也更容易讓人了解每一宮的意義。

這本書我還沒看完，不過很期待之後會讀到的東西，希望看完對各宮有更深一層的了解。

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Taiwan could touch your heart

Take a look at the new short film about Taiwan.



I love my motherland, that's for sure, no matter what.

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Sun into the clouds

Sometimes I really wish my father could love me as the way I could accept. When I was in school late at night, he picked me up and went home without talking a word in the car. No, he wasn't angry. That's usually what he was. I guess that was the way he loved me, a very indifferent and preserved way.

We got some confrontations in the past, but very few. Mostly we were in a situation that we knew each other existed, but no communication. This made us stay in our own safe zone. I don't know why we didn't get along, maybe we just loved each other too much, and afraid of getting hurt if we started to develop intimacy between us.

When I was getting older and older, I encountered some problem with men. Every fight, every argument happened, there was always a moment occurred to me that if my father and I could be more intimate, could those problems and misunderstandings disappear? If my father and I hugged more, could I see through men more clearly or build a relationship more rationally?

Father, I always misjudged a man badly. I always thought my man was happy with me. Father, I wish I could blame on you for all the tears in my life. Maybe that would be an easier way for me to start a new life. Look back my relationships, nothing was glorious, nothing was delighted to be mentioned. While I was crying to sleep, I wish I'd never waken up again. But there was always a hope that kept me alive, continuously being hurt by men no matter how old I was.
Maybe subconsciously, I was acting so miserable and waiting for you to rescue me in the end.

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學習被人討厭

被別人討厭總是一件讓人心煩的事情，就算自己多麼理直氣壯。我想命運讓我進這家公司，就是要我學習習慣這件事情吧。主管說自己是對的，就不要猶豫直說，猶豫只會讓那些魔鬼更吃定你。"軟土深掘"是一句俗語，對於下三濫的人就不能使用文明的方法。對人客氣，不知好歹的人只會更占你便宜。這就是業務導向的公司，也是台北人生活的一種模式。像我這種太在意別人看法的人，不改的話到最後只會被踩在腳底，永遠不受尊重。明天開始，我將不假思索，只為我相信的道理和人工作，只要是不經正常程序的作業，一律退回。不幫可惡的Eivata打電話，不受Rita死人臉的影響。就算受人討厭也不猶豫，也許會碰上小人，我也豁出去了，大不了離開公司，只要我有學到一點點人生的道理，我想也值得了。

refreshing

 



I know I know...I am a little bit lazy these few days.I just moved again to Hsin Yi Chu, and new challenging job. It was busy and finally settled everything down. New location is a two room, one kitchen, bathroom and living room flat. It was convenient for going everywhere. It’s only one bus stop to JKS metro station, or ten mins walk. Jin Hua depart store is so nearby. It seemed like I could go there shopping everyday.

I only need to take five stops to work. However, I go to work early, so can’t sleep too late. I just got a new job and new tasks. Secretary job demands closely attention and details should be really taken care. I made really a lot of mistakes…and still making. I hope soon I can realize the whole situation and get a better view of the whole job.

Last Sunday there was a housewarming party in my new flat. It was so nice because some old friends showed up. We were college friends and it seemed like we were going back to that moment then. It was so fun to have a nice conversation with them. Everybody was smiling and making jokes with each other. We had nothing in the living room. We just talked and had drink, but it was never boring.

I really hope I can stay here longer than previous houses. I really hate relocation and hope I don’t need to move again. I am getting sick of it.

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一個人的醫院

昨天下午，我的感冒已經到了需要去看醫生的地步，請了假回到中和，隨便找了一下醫院就醫。在診療室外面，等了一段時間，一個人坐在外面的沙發，油然而生的孤獨感，就這樣無預警跑了出來。一個人生病、一個人走路、一個人找醫院、一個人承受這小小的寂靜。醫院裡其實沒有很多人，兩個外勞在看電視、櫃台裡一位小姐靜靜地打著電腦，整個醫院沒有人講話，只有外面的車隆隆地經過，報表列印聲，夾雜著鍵盤聲。如果，假若，也許有男朋友的話，現在會是什麼畫面? 想像是個很恐怖的心理作用，它會把一個人吸進黑洞裡。沒有人打斷我的思緒，我也只好繼續想像下去。如果，假若，也許有男朋有的話，他會騎著機車，翹了班，帶我到處找醫院，第一個進入診所報我的名字掛號，幫我拿皮包裡的健保卡，吩咐我坐下，坐在我的身邊牽著我，不發一語。這一切都是這麼自然地描繪出來，好像一切都有可能發生。就在此時，我的思緒終於被醫生叫名而打斷，是的，一個人還是要看病，life must go on。從診療室出來，心情輕鬆了許多，也許是因為終於找到一個人傾訴的心理作用吧。離開之前，藥包上清楚寫著”25歲又6個月”，又讓思緒陷入了更深的黑洞當中。
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I am not you

Because you gave me life, so I should live like you.
Because you gave me something you called love, I should be so grateful.
I can't complain, I can't doubt.
Only thing I need to know is follow your rules.

Did you know I am a different human being with you?
Did you know I have a soul, feelings and thoughts?
Did you know being living is so different with happy living.

If you assume I should be grateful to accept all you gave me,
If you assume I should follow every single step that you have failed,
If you want me to be you, if you think I am another you
If you take the power to decide where I should go,
Please take my life away. Please take my life away.
I would rather die, but being you in my whole life.





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最新版MSN messenger

來呦~新版MSN Messenger 又來囉…最新的出到8.0。總名稱也改成 Windows Live Messenger。因為msn的用戶真的太多，所以新版改成邀請制，跟gmail一樣。一群激動的msn迷在Mess網站上搶著要邀請函，我也不落人後，每天都緊盯著公佈欄，看看有沒有好心的人士po上網頁。後來有點灰心因為都搶不到，可能是網路太慢的關係吧。沒想到後來看到某人的blog上有貼其他獲得邀請的方法，就是在Window Live Messenger的網站上申請試用最新版msn就可以了

當時雖然做了登記，不過沒什麼信心可以得到，因為網路上一大堆人在搶，怎麼可能我做個登記就有了。驚訝的是登記後第三天也就是今天，就收到email邀請我下載最新版的msn。哈哈真是不錯!

看一下長什麼樣子吧

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