Let it go

Today was the first day I dared to open my photo album and brought back the memory I've had from my last relationship. Sometimes you just wish everything could have gone better. Some moment you just pray you could have seized them as much as you could. This is the first time I finally admitted it was gone. It is also the first time I stopped to wish or pray for the impossible dream. Nothing could change if the mind refused to change. And I guess I am lucky to have a mind which is more self defensive and help me recover more quickly, even I know been hurt so deeply and so many times.

12/26 The Cattle turn over

 

本來約好的一個外國朋友,新年不來台灣了.因為她怕地震.當我跟她說台灣發生地震的時候,她問我說"那我要去嗎? 好可怕喔",其實我一直也沒想到她會因為這樣而不來.

可能因為生長在台灣已經習慣了吧.覺得因為地震更改行程是一件還蠻荒謬的事情,而且這一次並不像九二一一樣嚴重,基本上台北沒有受到很大的影響.

當她問我的時候,心裡的os是: 阿這樣就嚇到了..台灣人都是被嚇大的嗎?你這樣有點反應過度了吧..你這樣講,台灣人都應該全部移民囉?

當然我沒有說出口啦..只是..心裡覺得台灣人很可憐.不過比起有海嘯的國家,似乎有好一點,不過我們也有颱風啊...還有媒體污染,不相上下囉...

 

後來想一想,有一點原諒她了,畢竟生長環境的不同,她又是個很謹慎的人,在愛爾蘭百年來也只發生過一次地震.說不定她如果真實看到現在台灣平安無事的情形,

就不會這麼擔心了.

 

也許如果是我聽到大風雪的事,也會嚇得屁滾尿流也說不定.好像颶風也還蠻慘的...牛在飛....

 

(昨天看了地震那時的星盤,水星跟冥王手牽手ㄝ....是巧合?!? communication disconnection, traffic choas, internet down, mass destruction, reconstruction)